To move forward, one sometimes needs to let go of the past. That is easier said than done. My divorce was final March 30th, but I think somewhere in the back of my mind I truly hoped that maybe someday we could reconcile. Feelings can’t just be turned off and we did have so many good memories, or at least I thought we did.
Last week I finally realized that there is no going back. I have to move forward, feel all the feelings and then let them go.
One of the things I had a difficult time letting go of was the dried wedding bouquet from our Key West beach wedding. It was such a wonderful day and will always hold a special place in my heart.
I realized, though, that I have to let it go.
One of the wonderful things I gained with the new/old house is a lovely lilac bush that is in full bloom right now.
After taking a different vase filled with these scented beauties up to the hospital for my Dad who suffered a heart attack last Monday, I decided I could benefit from a vase of my own in the house. Somehow I didn’t have a vase to hold them. I spied the vase that held my dried bouquet and realized that the moment had come to let it go. (Dad is doing fine after getting a stent put in, by the way!! ❤😊❤)
I disposed of my bouquet and gathered a large group of lilacs and filled the vase.
One of the things I’ve done for myself lately is to take a watercolor class with my nephew. The last class was yesterday, but I want to continue practicing and (hopefully) improving my skills. I did a painting that I titled “Moving On”. I plan to put it in a frame and to hang it on my wall. It is my message to myself that life goes on and that I will be okay.
It may not be today or tomorrow or even a month from now, but one day I know I will wake up in the morning with more hope than regret. Until then, I will keep doing things that bring me closer to that day! These are a few of my favorite things: