Vulnerability is basically uncertainty, risk and emotional exposure. – Brene Brown
It’s been said about me that I can seem aloof at times or distant. I am guilty as charged. I am afraid sometimes to open up to people or to share my true feelings lest I am criticized for doing so. I see myself as a sensitive, caring, mostly optimistic person, so it hurts when that doesn’t seem to be the way others see me. It’s scary for me to let my guard down because I have in the past and I have been hurt because I did so.
When I am in a challenging situation, I can almost feel the suit materializing around me, locking my feelings inside. It’s difficult for me to be vulnerable because I feel like a turtle without her shell. If I allow others to access my thoughts and feelings, I can be stomped on and trampled and there will be nothing left of me. The easy thing to do is to put on my suit and close myself off from others, but I know that is a lonely way to live. It is only by allowing others to know me, warts and all, and opening myself up to being hurt that I can experience true happiness and belonging. Every day is a challenge, some more than others, but I keep trying to be open to the risks and rewards of being vulnerable. I am, as is every other human being, a unique, exquisite person and worthy of being loved. I need to remember that and to step out of my shell and let my armour fall to the ground.
Don’t ever try and be like anybody else and don’t be afraid to take risks. ~ Waylon Jennings
Take risks. Nothing can substitute experience. – Paulo Coelho