Sometimes things happen that overwhelm us and make us question our ability to keep on going. Making it through the rough patches, though, helps us to cherish and to be thankful when life brings little miracles and blessings our way.
Towards the end of 2020, I was dealing with the loss of my Mom in June, my youngest starting college and me moving into my family home. In November I found out my marriage was in essence over and there was nothing I could do to change that. I was completely blindsided and met with apathy and indifference from my “loving” husband. Being told that he had been unhappy for years despite the proof of the exact opposite in photos, notes, cards and gifts from our years together created a cognitive dissonance that was difficult to make sense of.
At that time, I started doing research trying to see if maybe there was some mental issue that went along with the physical maladies he suffered earlier in the year. Nothing made sense. The divorce went through and it was a few months after that that I “accidentally” found out about the other woman. Strangely, finding out that I had been cheated on as well as finding out about narcissistic personality disorder made it much easier to let go of things.
The experience caused me no small amount of heartache and no doubt some lingering trust issues. Going through that, however, made me stronger and made me evaluate what I want and deserve in a relationship.
It took me a few months and a bit of therapy to work through all of that and I was slow to dip my foot in the dating pool. 😉 I know myself and I knew that I wanted to be absolutely sure that I could trust the next person I gave my heart to. ❤️ I wanted someone who I could be myself with and who would accept me as I am and not require his “standards” to be met as a condition of receiving his love.
I have heard the phrase, “Not in my time, but in God’s time.” It wasn’t always easy to “Let go and let God”, but I did my best.
When I went on my first date with my honey, it was easy and relaxed and I wanted to see more of him. Still, I wasn’t ready to jump in right away. After a couple dates he told me that he was attracted to me and said that he would like to kiss me, but would wait until I was ready. He was a perfect gentleman and it wasn’t long until I was all in.
In a previous post, I talked about people who are givers and who naturally give of their time and talents when they see a need. It was such a blessing to find out that I was now with one of those givers. I was used to fending for myself, so having someone there to help with household emergencies or transportation for my girls was amazing.
This weekend as I was mowing the lawn and raking up the “lovely” 😉 apples that have blanketed my back yard, he tackled so many other projects for me.
When I finished mowing, I saw that he fixed the gate that had been broken by the sprinkler system installers last June. Being able to open and close it with ease rather than lifting and dragging it is wonderful! In addition, he assembled the table that now stands next to the hot tub so we can enjoy beverages while we are soaking our sore muscles away.💕 He then proceeded to the garage to install an organization system so the garage floor could be clutter free.
Finally, he installed organizers in the shed and made the inside look as amazing as the outside. It is perfectly organized and fits well with the shelves he previously assembled for me. It is clear that he loves me and wants to make my life better whenever and wherever he can. In return, I want to do the same for him. ❤️
As I was creating the little angel at the top of this post, I was thinking of how thankful I am to have such a thoughtful person to share life with. Life isn’t perfect. There are still plenty of challenges, but with the right person by your side, it is much easier to meet and overcome those challenges.
Thank you, God for bringing such a special person into my life. 💕
Love, ❤️ Beth